possibly, potential possibility is impossible

life is like a clock with no arrows on a train station
pointless, but still, its there
i mean, whats the point?
happiness? love? freedom?
what for?
those are not goals in theirselves, but means for something.
but what something is that?

why do stars shine?
why does saturn have dusty rings?
it all just an accident
there is no meaning, nor goal

or maybe stars,
in their intimate and archaic notion of self and being
wish they can grow big enough to explode
turn into a supermassive black hole
and devour the entire universe
or as much as they can
maybe this is their goal, their reason to exist

or maybe is it to make animal life possible in other planets?
yeah, but again, why?
maybe that's their second goal
during those billion years they just shine and grow
they justified their existence, but they also need to enjoy it
whilst they don't explode

unfortunately we have self consciousness
we know we can't avoid death
we know life is some kind of cruel and sick accident
bloody meat contracting and relaxing in the emptiness
and we know we dont have a reason to exist
but we have needs to fulfill
sexual needs, social needs, medical needs, philosophical and metaphysical needs
but for what, goddamnit?!

they tell us about this guy, god
and that the goal of life is to die, basically
so we can be worthy of joining him in heaven
whatever is going on there...

but we're all tired of hearing about him
and too "blind folded" by science to enjoy these or any other celestial or poetic pleasures
ultimately, god exists to recall humans they created reason out of nothing
wich pretty much means anything is possible
wich pretty much means everything is kinda pointless!
(dont get me wrong, im not suicidal nor pessimist)

maybe we exist to fertilize this earth with our dead bodies
layers and layers of rock, meat, brains and bones
buried stone civilizations
then steel ones, gold and diamond
a big layer of those covering the entire earth
for it to look like a star maybe
for it to never die out
is this the goal of human life?
will this gather enough conditions for... something else occur?

maybe we actually dont exist
maybe im the only one who exists
maybe there is god
maybe our entire universe is a child's marble ball
being randomly tossed away
and gazed upon with awe

maybe maybe maybe
maybe possibility has nothing to do with reason

meanwhile, let us continue playing the creators game