in vitro

im renewed - claimed some drifting spirit
the hatred filled me so into an apotheosis
but its not hatred i feel now
i feel power, colossal, devastating power
of orders so above and beyond
only devilish souls could withstand
only kings and mad people

it rumbles and echoes through time and matter
this energy that surrounds me
i just fall asleep into a dream of chaos and beauty
suddendly there is no right or wrong, no good or bad
fear and hapiness blend into a state of immanence
a being, surrounded by nothingness

to renew oneself is to revisit the holy unknowness
chaos cleans ones wisdom off
power is to have no wisdom at all
power is to return to the holy unknown territory
where meanings are loosely flying around, waiting to be rearranged
to rediscover, reinvent
only then you get weaker

the more you can strip off your truths and wisdom
the more powerfull you are
because suddendly your enemies dont know who they are going to fight
and their old weapons may not harm you again

finally surrounded by the holy unknown
the renewed spirit laughs before he opens his eyes
"what shall I see now?"
"into what kind of perfect ignorant shall I become now?"

(or maybe, will?)

Courage is really the most admirable quality of man's character
To go, not knowing where, for the sake and love of change


(dedicated to meshuggah)